2015 has been a long year, 364 days ago, i was worried about different issues, obsessed about different things and living around different people. a lot of things have changed, a lot of things have happened, the good and the bad.
maybe it’s because i’m not in a really good state of emotions right now, so i see the year as relatively shitty, but to think back again, i’ve accomplished some great milestones, and i’m grateful for all the love and support that i got for achieving it.
the thing that was bothering me the whole year was if i’d ever find someone to love again. and even though it’s a long story of embarassment and mild heartbreaks, i figured i’d just leave it at that. fuck love. they say what’s yours will come to you, it doesn’t have to happen now, it’ll happen in the right time. so no, i do not plan on searching for someone to love next year. it’s time to focus on me.
anyways, this year, i graduated high school. i got into a university that i thought was lame, monash. i met new people, who i thought was lame too, because of their innocence and polar opposite personalities to the friends i had in high school. but no. the school and the people were not lame. my attitude was.
2015 is a shitty year because i made it a shitty year. it was my fault i didn’t apply to a better school. it was my fault i didn’t plan ahead. the worst part of it all, i kept lying to myself. it’s true, i don’t have a lot of fighting spirit. so in 2016, i plan on striving for the best. to study my ass off, to focus on me. live a healthy life, focus on my family. hangout with positive people who gives positive vibes. block out all the negativity.
and when it hurts, i’ll probably cry, and maybe blog about it. but i will not let anyone get in the way of my happiness. because i am the most important person in the world to me. and nobody has the right to take that away from me.
+ i got a beagle called kono she’s so cute omgggg #bestthingabout2015